| Feb. 6th, 2006 @ 12:56 am AHHHHHHHH!!!!! |
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Current Mood:  numb
Current Music: DragonForce - Through the Fire and Flames
I am SOOOO fed up with myspace! It is the root of all evil! That and WoW! I never do anything anymore! I have noe social life and the only people I hang out with are the ones that live with me. And that is a grand total of TWO people! You know what? You cant freakin blog on Myspace like you can here. Well, you can, but it isnt the same. I wan a job. And I want a girlfriend too... that'd be nice. I want something.... but maybe Im asking too much of the world. I dont know. Its been a while since I got something good. Last time I had anything worth while was last summer.. and I through that out the window for an "idea." GRRR! I need to be able to talk to people again. I need to regain a consciousness of the world around me so I can once again be quick-witted and humorous. I need something other than a computer and 48 whining little brats(they arent all of the time but damn... ). Can you belive it? I listle to heavy metal now. Not death metal with the guys that growl into the Mic, but guys with totally awesome voices that sing really melodically to some bitchen guitar playing. Ever heard of DragonForce, Megadeth, or Children of Bodem? Well they fuckin rock. thats right... I said fuckin. What are you gonna do about it? nothin. Today I met a girl who was extremely beautiful, had a great smile, and was totally awesomefunnyrad(<--- yeah, so cool that its all one word) Anyway, after discovering this totally awesome girl I realized that I didnt know how to talk to girls anymore. I was totally useless in her presence and couldnt recover. Thats one of the reasons I need a social life again.. so I can talk to girls like a normal person and not someone whos been locked up in a room for the past three years. And thats exactly how I feel too. Ive been sitting in my room, at my computer, for the last three years. All through highschool I didnt have any problems until I had a relationship that lasted soo long and that I was sooo certain of that I neglected my ability to woo the women. after that I went girlfriendless for about a year. Then I didnt go out with anyone one new. I went out with two different girls that I had gone out with like two or three years before. It was sooo strange. Then I moved to sac and kinda went out with a totally wonderful person, but because I never left my house, we didnt really talk much. we didnt do anything at all. It was lame. Then I got reunited with an old friend from middle school and I started going out with her. and I did a horrible thing which I swear to god that Ive never done until then, I went out with her probably souly on the fact that she had big boobs. I know that it sounds sad but I did. And Im totally ashamed for it because I swore that I would never do something like that ever! And Id like to say that again for all of you that didnt get it the firt time, I have never EVER gone out with someone based purely on their looks until her. Then I met this girl on the internet(that right there should have been the first clue to never persue a relationship) and we went out. She drove up to Sac just to meet and it was like "love at first sight" but then turned out to definitely not be true. We never saw eachother cause she lived in like fresno. And you cant really have a relationship when you never see eachother as cleared demonstrated by the relationship before last... but whatever. I was stupid and HAD to have a grlfriend like a dumbass.. and then it didnt work out. So now m sitting here doing what I have always done on LJ and complained about my relationships with girls. Anyway... I just want to hang out with all of my friends and meet some new people and go out with a totally awesome, beautiful girl that I can be totally weird with. Goddamnit... GIVE ME SOMETHING!!!!
So yeah... hi everyone. How are you?
~Patrick |
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